I'm writing this in our iMessage then copying it into the site — so it feels like I'm texting you this right now.

I actually started working on this a week ago, but as you already know, our week didn't go as planned.

My love for you has been so strong over the last few months, and only getting stronger. It feels like I found a partner for life when I talk to you.

I know you probably hate my guts, and I'm so sorry for all the dumb shit I did before. I know this is not an excuse, and I'm not sure if you're going to truly be able to love me — but you're genuinely the most important thing in my life.

I really hope you know I wish the old version of me never existed. I should have told you the truth rather than you having to find out.

I am sorry, Saanvi.

I love you so much. I wish I could have been with you on your birthday. Hopefully I can gain the privilege of that next year.

I love you, Saanvi.